I have had a tough Wildman week. He is more uncontrollable than normal. Today we went to Target and I ran into a neighbor who helps me with Little Boy A when I have to take Wildman to one of his therapies. I said to the woman,”Hi How did you get out of the house alone on Saturday morning?” In that time Little Boy A lost his shoe and Wildman did something to the automatic door at the Target so no one could leave. There were about 20 people milling about trying to get out of the Target while Wildman tried even harder to break the door and Little Boy A was outside the door with one shoe. I have to say I lost my parental cool at that moment. Finally, someone from Target rescued me from the judgemental glare of the shoppers and we were all on our way. I lost it in the car and called my husband and told him that I can’t parent this kid. I was done and quitting. He told me that we had a sitter arranged so that we could get some much needed alone time and to drop them off and come home. Mind you I have a saint as a babysitter who genuinely loves my kids, but I tend to call her house, Miss Kelly’s house of get them the fuck out of my hair. So I drop my chaotic duo at Miss Kelly’s House OGTTFOOMH and came home. I calmed down, got laid, picked up the kids, and we took a nice family nap. This evening we went swimming as a family. The rest of the day went better than the morning.
Tonight I read this. Go ahead and read it. It talks about ADHD kids hallucinating on ADHD meds. After reading this I want to redouble my efforts to parent my ADHD wonderkid drugless for as long as possible. It is hard but sometimes very rewarding to parent Wildman. I have to keep that in mind as he breaks the door at Target and gets under my skin. He deserves the best I can give. I am not sure ADHD drugs are the best I can give.
I think you are doing great. Thank you for your honesty because it helps me to feel better about not being 100 percent patient.
I took concerta for ADD as an adult and found it helpful but it in the end I found that it caused more problems because of the side effects. When I came down off of them I felt hostile, it disturbed my sleep pattern and I was always agitated. Everyones different but I am doing pretty good without it. Of course I’m half senile at this point so maybe I just don’t notice but I think I’m doing okay. Most of the problems I had had to do with low self esteem from ADD, not the ADD itself.
This is why I think he’s going to find the cure to cancer….he’s quick, wiley, smart and under all that sometimes uncontrollable energy – the kid has a huge heart.
I’ve said for years – people pay a price for their brillance – I have the feeling this is his price but at the same time – what wonders are in his future? The list is endless!!
Miss Kelly’s house of get them the fuck out of my hair. ****I LOVE IT**** Hang in there with wildman. He is too cute for words, know he can be tough, but just hang on.